Hello friends! I have missed visiting with you during this time of change. A month ago I moved from my sister’s home into my own place. I love the friendship I share with my sister and the country side was profoundly inspirational. My time there has helped heal many of my wounds but it was time for me to take the next step in healing and be “with” myself. I live in a small trailer in the country. There is plenty of space to enjoy my kind of decorating with shells, stones and branches. I enjoy my relationship with my Peopledog Petey and feel safe with her as my protector.

I had prospects of a job that did not work out but I have another temporary job that is even healthier for me. I am doing landscape work for some friends. I can do the work gradually and it is good to be outside. All in all I am settling down to a new routine. I talk with my sister a couple of times each day and we meet for lunch a few times each week.

The idea that change is circular came to me today as I went to visit my sister. The adjustment this last month has been somewhat difficult but I could not put it into words. I found myself having very few words replaced by quiet feelings. I feel stronger now and know that part of the circle of change is to feel more connected.

 I have written before about the roller coaster road to my sister’s house. The fullness of nature is wonderful on that drive. I knew I had come full circle in this process of change when I saw one of the eagles that resides in just the same place as I have seen her before.  Instead of swooping low as I passed by, the eagle was flying high in the sky. The message of change from the spirit of eagle seemed to encourage me in my new found independence. This seemed to be the part of the circle that keeps my feet planted on the ground while risking to  reach for more.

There are other parts of the circle of change and I want to be patient and yet deliberate in allowing the flow of the circle to to light my way. While I continue to be grateful for being vertical in the face my illness I am drawn to the movement of the circle and the life sustaining change happening in my life.