A Still Soft Voice
October 5, 2008
12:53 pm
annie
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Hello friends! Sorry again to be away for so long. I had a bad case of poison ivy and it occupied my thoughts and feelings for a number of weeks. I find that since my move to living alone that my self-talk is in remnants with ideas and feelings that fall short of being cohesive. At times the still soft voice in my mind that helps me write is so faint I can hardly hear the message. There is another part of me that is observing and wondering if this is but a change in how I express what I see and what I feel. I am functioning just fine on a daily basis. I must admit that I have a slight mistrust of the changes in my life. I continue to trust that all will be well at the end of this adjustment.
I suppose it is true that in living alone one develops a chorus of inside voices to fill the void that was once filled by the voices of family and friends. These voices once echoed in the background of my mind and the majority of my thoughts were in reaction to my interactions with others. Through it all there is an awesome sense of change that is stirring in my soul. My breathing is a little bit stronger and I find contentment and peace in hearing my own voice. I maintain contact with my family and friends but there are stretches of time that I am alone and have time to ponder life.
To this point my dialogs with self have been the basis of my writing and storytelling. Lately incomplete remnants of thought make it difficult to write. There have been few words to convey my experiences. The observations of nature and the messages that characterized some of my previous writing have retreated to some extent and for a time. I am less visual in my observations and more contemplative and soul searching for the circular spirit of my being.
To this point in my life I have been enlightened as I listen for the voices of my grandmothers and grandfathers to come and inspire me with their teachings. I am piecing together the remnants of thought and feelings as in a series of quilt pieces. It falls short of an entire living quilt yet remains purposeful and fulfilling in many ways. I trust that with the season of Fall comes the need for snuggling under downy comfort and having dreams of storytelling inspired by the Creator.
October 5th, 2008 at 7:21 pm
Are you on your way to enlightening? This is no sarcasm.
I will sent you an invitation and would be honoured if you accept it.
October 5th, 2008 at 9:14 pm
Dear Annie,
So glad to read that you’re back. I would imagine it’s quite an adjustment being alone after spending many years with your partner.
I hope you are able to be alone without feeling lonely. Perhaps your peopledog helps in this.
It is nice to hear your “voice” again, independently of what you write about.
Warmly,
Susan
October 6th, 2008 at 3:56 am
Dear Annie,
It’s good to hear from you. I have been missing you. Thank God you are feeling better.
It indeed takes time to adjust to the changes in your life. I am praying for you. May God be very near to you each day and provide wonderful friends for you. Do remember that we are always here for you too
Take care and keep in touch.
Praying for you,
Nancie
October 8th, 2008 at 3:21 pm
Hi Annie,
Yes, I’m with Susan, it’s nice to just hear your “voice.”
Respect this time of transition and don’t worry if you’re productive in writing…I’m needing to step back from writing too, though something occasionally still emerges…
October 10th, 2008 at 10:33 am
Hi Annie,
I love the idea of listening for the voicces of your Grandmothers and Grandfathers. I listen for the voice of my Mom often, and she speaks to me through many things that happen in my life.
Recently I have been having a hard time, and when I look to the sky for help she is there in the guise of the moon…always directly in my view; shining as bright as ever. It as though she is following and protecting me. Your ancestors will protect, follow and inform you too.
Glad to welcome you back,
…aqua
October 14th, 2008 at 9:52 pm
I am new here, but looking forward to reading more about you:)
October 17th, 2008 at 4:36 pm
Mago- thanks for the comments, I may very well be searching for enlightenment. Your invitation is welcome. Peace, Annie
Susan, It is good to hear your voice as well! Annie
Nancie, Thank you for your prayers! Annie
Gianna, I appreciate the suggestion of taking my time. Peace, Annie
Aqua, It was helpful to hear your understanding of talks with our relatives. Peace, Annie
Abhaya, Welcome to my site. I welcome you to visit past posts and come back again. Peace, Annie